Being Philosophical………

Before anyone reads this I apologise to anyone who might find this post a little off.

I knew I was drowning, I mean, you would, wouldnt you?  ……………….I was only maybe 9 or 10 years old, and my father had taken me to the local swimming pool.  I was my parents first born, my younger brother was only 5, so he stayed at home. But to get to the incident in question.

It was all a big adventure for me, just the thought of going swimming! Wow!  I also felt a pang of fear, a real sense of danger! But I was with my father. I remember getting changed, and had on my new, (then they were new!) trunks, red I think. There were two pools, a shallow one for kids, and a massive one for adults. To get to the kids pool, you had to pass the adults one.

I was holding my Dads hand and he led me to the kids pool, the attendant there said he would keep an eye on me, so I got stuck in, made some friends, and got thoroughly wet!  Of course I needed to pee, so I had to go back to the changing rooms, past the Big pool! I remember looking for the attendant, but couldnt see him, so I decided that I could do this.

I dont remember how it happened, but there was a bump, and I felt as though I`d been pushed. I didnt cry out, and as I fell into the water, I could just see all the people around me, there were lots. But no one saw me……………I tried to get back out, I tried to scream, but the water filled my lungs, I heard my own screams. It didnt take long,  and then I  started feel quiet, a sort of floaty feeling, and I could see people passing by above me, they must have been walking along the edge of the Big pool.

It was quite a pleasant feeling, not stressful, more of an acceptance.  I dont know how long it lasted. But the next I knew, I was being sick, and struggling for breath again, but this time I could hear voices all around.  I cried.

My Dad took me home, in an Ambulance after a visit to the Hospital.  Looking back now, I was very lucky, maybe not my time, and there has been a few of those!  So I wonder, what is it, that we dont know?  I dont have a fear of water, I became a diver in later years, and a good swimmer, so I dont have that fear, but what is it we dont know?  Its a crazy question, but needs an answer. I read recently that scientists have been able to separate a gene that is responsible for longevity, but that isnt quite it, no, its what fate has in store, and thats what we dont know. ……………..I wonder.